“The more you want to be a teacher, the more you need to be a student.” ~ Alan Cohen
The return of lupus and fibromyalgia after a pretty long run of good health has been kick in the pants. Not that I have been completely symptom free in the past decade but I have been blessed to work through any physical problems I have had.
It was very difficult and humbling to admit that I am sick. I’m a healer for God’s sake! How can I heal if I am sick? Although it might seem contradictory, many healers spend a great deal of their childhood and/or adulthood healing from sickness. It is often their own illnesses that bring them to a place of strength and compassion to help others.
There have been many wonderful friends and family who have helped me put this in perspective. The most unexpected advice came from a call I received yesterday. My brother who is homeless and living under a bridge felt there was something wrong with me and he called to check on me. We have always had a special connection. It is usually me who worries about him. I have felt in the past that he wasted his talents and gifts. However his phone call changed the way I felt about his life and choices. He called to encourage me and remind me of the my purpose. The words that came out of his mouth were so profound that I am still reflecting on them. My brother with the healing words…it is a gift. He didn’t throw it away. All this time I mourned for his loss of purpose in life and I realized that maybe it was I who didn’t understand his purpose. I thanked him for sharing with me and told him, “You have a gift brother. You should share your gift.” To my astonishment he said, “I do sis. I share encouragement and counsel the homeless people who live under the bridge.” I was absolutely floored and again very humbled. My brother the teacher and I the student.
Without this experience, I might not have realized there is purpose to everyone. I am so grateful to my brother who has opened my eyes to the bigger picture. This journey is becoming very interesting and rather serendipitous.